[thechat] Mythology was comics

[Bob Davis]

On Friday, May 25, 2001, at 11:08 AM, Joe Crawford wrote:
> ** warning horrible imagery and bitter sarcasm ahead **

And I'm just going to add to the horror and bitterness...

> I'm right now remembering taking care of a girl (I was monitoring her
> airway, and taking care of her ventilator [the machine which breathed 
> for
> her] ) - 9 or 10 years old, with buckshot embedded in her face, chest, 
> and
> arms - bloodied in the aftermath of her father shooting her and her 
> brother.
> (He might have shot the mother as well, but I don't remember).
>
> For me, choosing to believe that there's "more behind it" with regards 
> to
> this incident is at odds with a sane god. Why does this "God" choose to 
> give
> some business a new client, while on the other hand allowing a young 
> girl to
> get riddled with bullets?

I hear you Joe.

When I was 14 I had to watch my brother (12) die of leukemia.  He had 
pneumonia, had wasted away from the chemo, had tubes in every vein. His 
frail body simply gave up.

Someone gave my parents a copy of "Why bad things happen". I couldn't 
have been more resentful. I was just a kid, but having anyone try to 
tell me that god was watching and that it was part of a plan made me 
want to punch them in the face.  No comfort there. That little white 
book was nothing more than a reminder of the suffering that I had 
witnessed.

My parents rediscovered the church at that time. I hated it.  I was 
never much of a church goer, and I was even less inclined to find 
anything of use then. What kind of comfort is there in a group of 
strangers who sheepishly hold hands when they sing, don't look at each 
other, blindly stand, sit, and kneel when the time comes for that.  It 
was all empty.  Eventually, even my parents gave up on it.

Having some old Jesuit try to tell me that there was a plan just invoked 
anger. Plan? Are you fucking kidding me? How is any plan furthered by a 
12 year old boy dying?  I see chaos more than plans.  I do not believe 
in miracles. "Miracles" are nothing more than seeing the details you 
choose to see in the chaos that surrounds us.  I don't care about 
religion.  For me, it's just empty.

Any peace I have found has been from within or from those I love and 
love me.  No religion gives me that.

If it works for you, though, have at. Whatever makes you happy. I'll not 
challenge beliefs as long as they aren't imposed upon me.

bob
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bob davis
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